” I need someone who’s going to be there for me no matter what happens. Someone who truly loves me. Someone I can trust.”

-Hannah

” You’re like a….

You’re like a….

Random Surprise (: “

-CrushOf5yearsAndStillCounting HeWhoShallNotBeNamed

OhGod. I’m just a random surprise to him.

Random: by chance/ strange/ unusual

Surprise: unexpected

Random. Surprise.

I’m a random surprise. I’m a random surprise. I’m a random surprise. I’m a random surprise. I’m a freaking RANDOM SURPRISE.

Once again, for the umpteenth time, my heart shattered to pieces.

Why don’t I ever learn?

Hello You.

I think I’ve had a crush on you for the longest time. 5 years and still counting. True, I’ve had my share of infatuations with other male species. But I never did seem to get my head/heart off you.

Sometimes I ask myself why is the situation as such. But I don’t seem to be able to find the answer. I guess I’m just being silly. Waiting for you is like waiting for the OHIDONTKNOW!

You don’t know how I feel. I don’t want to show it. Because, I’m afraid of losing you altogether. It’s all a facade, the way things are between us. Friends, that’s what we are and will probably continue to be. Reveal my feelings, and things will be awkward.

And so….
I’m moving on with life. I’m through pining. It’ll be tough, but I have to do it. For my own good. Because, I know you’ll never fall for me. And I’ll probably learn to accept a certain guy out of them dudes who ever voiced their interest. That is, if they prove to care for me more than I ever cared for you.

As for now….
I’m done with everything and anything related to affairs of the heart. From now on, I shall not bother to initiate any form of communication. Let’s see how long it’ll take for you to realise my absence.

Singapore Polytechnic - Diploma in Optometry 2013.
University of Manchester (UK) - Bachelor of Science (with Honours) in Optometry 2015.

Nur Ain Binte Abdul Razak.
Single, not looking. (:

“Aku hanya ingin cinta yang halal

Di mata dunia dan juga akhirat

Biar aku sepi aku hampa aku basi

Tuhan sayang aku”

” *Sigh* Jess, I’m pretty sure its you. And I’m pretty sure you’ve been calling and you’re not saying anything but wanna say something.

Hello? You’re not going to talk? Fine. I’ll talk.

You didn’t handle things right. At all. You could’ve talked to me. You could’ve told me that you were having trouble in school and that you weren’t going to graduate and that your Dad had been there. But you didn’t.

And you ended up not taking me to my prom. And not coming to my graduation. And leaving again without saying good-bye again. And.. that’s fine. I get it.

But that’s it for me. I’m going to Europe tomorrow. And I’m going to Yale. And I’m moving on. And I’m not going to pine. I hope you didn’t think I was going to pine, okay?

I think.. I think I may have loved you but I.. I just need to let it go. So.. that’s it, I guess. Um, I hope you’re good. I want you to be good. And umm, okay, so, good-bye. That word sound really stupid and lame right now, but there it is. GOODBYE. ”

-Rory Gilmore; Gilmore Girls

“I want to let you in on a secret. I’m not who you think I am. In fact, my disguise is so thin I’m surprised you haven’t seen right through me. I’m the girl of your dreams masquerading as your best friend. Sometimes I want to rip off this facade like I did at the spring formal but I can’t. Because you’ll get scared and you’ll run away again. So I decided that its better to live with the lie than expose my true feelings.

This is so much easier when you’re unconscious.

My dad told me there are two types of girls - the ones you grow out of and the ones you grow into. I really hope I’m the latter. I may not be the one you love today but I’ll let you go for now hoping one day you’ll fly back to me. Because I think you’re worth the wait.”

-Chloe Sullivan; Smallville